God, all this time I needed You

Another one of my favorite songs.

I So Hate Consequences
A song by Relient K

And I'm good, good, good to go
I got to get away
Get away from all of my mistakes

So here I sit looking at the traffic lights
The red extinguishes I hope that the green ignites
I want to run away I want to ditch my life
Cause all of my mistakes keep me awake at night

And after all of my alibis desert me
I just want to get by
I don't want nothing to hurt me
I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says "I'm sorry" can we leave it at that?
Because I just want for all of this to end

And I so hate consequences
And running from You is what my best defense is
Whoa, Consequences
God, don't make me face up to this
And I so hate consequences
And running from You is what my best defense is
Cause I know that I let You down
And I don't want to deal with that

It just now hit me this is more than just a set back
And when you spelled it out, well, I guess I didn't get that
And every trace of momentum is gone
And this isn't turning out the way I want

And after all of my alibis desert me
I just want to get by
I don't want nothing to hurt me
I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says "I'm sorry" can we leave it at that?
Because I just want for all of this to end

And I so hate consequences
And running from You is what my best defense is
Whoa, Consequences
God, don't make me face up to this
And I so hate consequences
And running from You is what my best defense is
Cause I know that I let You down
And I don't want to deal with that

And I spent all last night
Tearing down
Every stoplight
And stop sign in this town
Now I think there might
Be no way to stop me now
I'll get away despite
The fact I'm so weighed down
All of my escapes have been exhausted
I thought I had a way but then I lost it
And my resistance was once much stronger
And I know I can't go on like this much longer

When I got tired of running from You
I stopped right there to catch my breath
There Your words they caught my ears
You said, "I miss you son, come home"
And my sins, they watched me leave
And in my heart I so believed
The love You felt for me was mine
The love I'd wished for all this time
And when the doors were closed
I heard no I told you so's
I said the words I knew You knew
Oh God, Oh God I needed You
God all this time I needed You, I needed You

And I so hate consequences
And running from You is what my best defense is
I hate these consequences
Because I know that I let you down
And I don't want to deal with that

In His Holy Presence I am Healed and Unashamed

I have the best friend in the world. I spent the night with her last night. We talked about things I'd never talked to anyone about, and she didn't hate me. I thank the Lord for her. I don't cry in songs ever, but last night right before I went to bed was the closest I've ever come to crying during a song. I'd never thought about it in the context of what we were talking about, but it came to mind last night and it really hit home. Hard.

Carried to the Table
A song by Leeland

Wounded and forsaken
I was shattered by the fall
Broken and forgotten
Feeling lost and all alone
Summoned by the King
Into the Master’s courts
Lifted by the Savior
And cradled in His arms

I was carried to the table
Seated where I don’t belong
Carried to the table
Swept away by His love
And I don’t see my brokenness anymore
When I’m seated at the table of the Lord
I’m carried to the table
The table of the Lord

Fighting thoughts of fear
And wondering why He called my name
Am I good enough to share this cup
This world has left me lame
Even in my weakness
The Savior called my name
In His Holy presence
I’m healed and unashamed

I'm carried to the table
Seated where I don’t belong
Carried to the table
Swept away by His love
And I don’t see my brokenness anymore
When I’m seated at the table of the Lord
I’m carried to the table
The table of the Lord

(It's healing in Your arms, for the broken)
You carried me, my God
You carried me
You carried me, my God
You carried me